Hello Winter!

It's snowing or rather it's a dreadful mix of running and frozen water coming from the sky.
Why??? Where can I complain? I want my money back!!!

So, it's Friday today - nice. I'm going to rent a DVD tonight and have a drink.
Now, I've been trying to get the morning paper for some time now. A salesperson called and offered me a very good deal so I said yes. This was 2 weeks ago and still no paper. They called yesterday claiming they have got the wrong address but somehow they got my phonenumber right. Now it is suppose to come tomorrow... we'll see about that.

There is one person who annoys me more than anyone on this planet: Linda Skugge (unfortunately she writes in Swedish). Anyway she is on a personal crusade trying to convince women in their 30ies to have children. The irony is that she used to be a very trendy "city-girl" and now she has kids and a house in the suburbs and is just plain sad!
She has always been very judgmental about peoples lifestyles - it's very much her way or the highway but seriously....
If she wants to have kids and live in the suburbs - fine. I'm happy for her but why can't she respect other peoples choices? And now - even worse - she is against free abortions! I am totally pro-choice! I have a very hard time believing that women would use abortion as birthcontrol.
She seriously promotes that OB's should convince women to have kids since "there are so many women who wants to have kids and can't". Ok, that is NOT an argument. I truly feel very sorry for those who wants to have kids and can't but will they be happier if I have kids?? No, didn't think so.
I have never had an abortion (knock on wood) but I really don't think it would be a decision I would take lightly.
In theory, if I became pregnant, I could keep the baby. I mean I am a quite capable adult but I don't want to. I have never had that desire to have children. Maybe my maternal genes are just not functioning. I mostly find kids loud and annoying...

Spoke to Dr C yesterday. I think he has found my blog since he told me about what's going on in his life just like I wanted :) But then... he said to me: "Maybe you'll feel better and have more fun if you'd get a job" Gee, thanks for that advice, that idea never actually crossed my mind. What the hell does he think I've been doing for the last 3 months?!?!
Today I got an answer to the mail I sent to place where I'd like to work and they want me to send over my cv :) Keep your fingers crossed for me!!

Big shoutout to fierce and fab Gonzo who had her birthday!

Saturday I'm having dinner with sis, Hannah and Tanja. And then we'll hit the town for some drinks. Might see you out there!
Take care!

Song of the day: The Max - Prince

Hello Boredom!

It's official: I have no life! The prime of my day today seems to be the laundry and a call from mum...
OMG, a job is a must right now. Did however work at Huvudsta yesterday which was fun as usual. Camilla, friend from Huvudsta, is leaving and starting up her own business: she is becoming a bag designer! How cool isn't that?!? I will so buy her stuff when they come out.

Spoke to Dr C on Monday night, or more like Tuesday morning. I called to see if we could have lunch today but he is busy. I so tried to tell him a the stuff I'm thinking about over the phone but it was 1 o'clock at night so my mind wasn't that clear.
So far I've come up with (or my fierce buddy Nick has come up with) the fact that I think way too much. I should just go with my gut feeling. But it was my gut that got me into this trouble to start with...
So what does my gut tell me??!?!
I do like him a lot most of the time.
I wish we could "connect" easier but I know that I'm partly to blame for that as I do not like to talk about myself

Ok, enough of the rambling: next time I see him I'm going to tell him that I'd like to keep seeing him, more often and we need to define what we are. If only for my own peace of mind.

Now there I have it, that is what I need: peace of mind. Just wonder where I'm going to find it....

So hungry now!

Take care!

Song of the day: Sooner or Later - Madonna

Hello Consumer!

Last impulse purchase: A new face cream by Laura Mercier
Best walk: Along Karlbergsstrand
Favorite drink: Champagne
Eat luxury dinner at: F12
Favorite street: Avenue de Champagne in Epernay
Best pre-partymusic: MJB and BWO
Best give awaypresent: A nice bottle of wine
Favorite luxury stuff: Expensive shoes and bags
Favorite sounds: Don't know
Latest discovery in Stockholm: Some really nice new restaurants down town
Favorite gallery: Don't really go to galleries but I like the Museum of Modern Art
Favorite site: Shortcut
Favorite magazine: Livets Goda
Place to take mum to dinner: Cook something nice at home
Favorite suburb: Huvudsta - the place to be ;)
Besplacece for coffee: Mojo (to stay) or Sosta (to go)
Favorite store: Tara Jarmon, ZARA and COW
Best lunch: At home
Favorite brand: Xuly Bet
Favorit animal: Cat
The worlds best living director: Ang Lee...maybe
Famous person I'd like to meet: David Gahan!!!
Favorite shoes: Can't decide but this summer I'll wear higher heels
Money spent on clothes each month: Depends..
Fahion roll model: MJB and Gwen Stefani
Most overrated store: Gucci
Most expensive thing I've bought: My apartment
Fashion I don't ever want to see again: Capri pants for men, seriously
Favorite product at Systembolaget: Most kinds of champagne
Best Hang over food: pizza
Favorite bar: NOX
Latest find: a very cool necklace at HM
Best novel: The Class by Erich Segal
Best poetry collection: Anything by Robert Blake
Favorite product from the pharmacy: resorb - the best thing against a hangover
Order at the bar: Champagne or Cosmopolitans

So, indulge me with your lists :)

On Strike

It's not only the French that are on strike. I am a one person procession of demonstrators...or it's maybe more like a boycott. I read that Tommy Hilfiger does not like it when black rappers wears his clothes - therefore I'm now boycotting anything by Tommy. I really don't think it will have any impact on the world business but still...
Now, regarding the French - they truly have my sympathies. The proposition is totally outrageous. By being able to lose your job with out warning for the first 2 years your have absolutely no security at all. The jobs I have had I stayed about 2 years.
It's crazy and I hope M. de Villepin will see his mistake and change his mind.

I admire people who goes out of their way to make changes in the world. I give money to the MSF and sometime to some other charities but that's it. I want to try to find something that I can be really passionate about (and this not being getting a new Furla bag). Maybe I should try out some volunteerwork....I'll look into it.

Talked to Dr C today. He is in Italy with his job, conference and skiing. I wish I was skiing in Italy...
He didn't tell me that he was going which only once again proves that I am not a factor in his life...
He has shut down his account on the datingwebsite - if that is good or bad I don't really know yet. I am going to ask him when he comes back to town.
On the one hand I suppose it's good that he is not dating someone else but on the other hand it could be that he has actually met someone else he wants to be with. (Wonder why buddy Carl says that I tend overanalyze things ;))

Blogger and IRL buddy Joachim left for his diving adventure in Egypt today. He'll be back in a months time and hopefully spring will have arrived then. Yesterday it was actually snowing!!

Next week I'm contacting a girl who is training to be a cook. She wants to work within the eventbusiness just like me. It would be great if we could find something to do together.

Now I will get back to watching figureskating :)

Take care

Song of the day: What Is A Man - Alexander O'Neil

Winter is back

and with a vengeance! Today it's actually snowing... again! The weekend was really nice. I got to wear my new sunglasses that I love and there was a feeling of spring in the air.

Last week was nice. I spent a lot of time alone around the house. Dr C was working a lot so we only spoke on the phone a few times. Friday was sis' birthday and we all met for dinner at an Italian place. The food was ok but the portion were quite small.
Got to met sis' new boyfriend. He seems a bit stuck up actually and he tried to make some jokes that no one really found funny. But all in all dinner was nice and it was nice to see Dr C again - I missed him (the romantic is back...;)).

Saturday was the Swedish try outs for the Eurovision song Contest. Now this is still a huge deal in Sweden. This last week it has been all over the papers "Did the right song win??" Well, if you ask me the answer is no.
Carola won, and all my respect to her as an artist but she has some opinions about the church, god and the gay community that scares me. To say for instance that being homosexual is a sin and you can be cured by prayer.... I DON'T THINK SO!!!
I can't really believe why some find homosexuality so offensive. As long as we are talking about consenting adults I don't care whether there is 1 person or 10 in bed (or wherever you choose to have your fun).
Hannah and myself joined sis and some of her friends and watched the competition. A-K, where we were, is so into this. She has taped all the competitions since 1981...
After the TV-show was over Hannah and I stayed and had a great conversation with A-K and her man. They are really nice both of them.

Sunday Hannah and me went into town to check out some clothes for the upcoming wedding. Now I know the actual wedding is not until August but it's always nice to be prepared :) I really don't know which dresscode they will go for. Knowing Gosta, he is kind of traditional so I think it will be quite a dress up occasion.
After strolling around a bit we went over to Nordic Light hotel for martinis and some wine and then off to Nordic Sea hotel for dinner. It's important to end the weekend in a good way I believe.
We got to talking about dating ex-boyfriends of friends. God, for me that is a huge no-no... Well at least depending on how much time has passed since the breakup. Less than 1 year is not happening for me.
Called Dr C to see if he wanted to join us but there was no answer. He had a huge presentation to work on. He called back a bit later but then my cellphone battery died so I couldn't call him back. Too bad!
Called him again yesterday by still no answer. I'm not that big on leaving messages for people so I guess he'll call me back eventually. I hope I'll get to see him this weekend, we both have been quite busy in the evenings lately.

Have been thinking a lot about relationships lately. Per and I talked last weekend about how to make your partner feel appreciated and secure. I know I'm not good at that but I'm going to try a bit harder. I will try to talk more about me and my feelings and ask more about him and how he feels about things.
We did have a nice talk about his job after sis' dinner. I tried to cheer him up and make him see the good sides.

Now enough of the drama I'm really hungry.

Take care!
Song of the day: Satisfied - Prince

It's all about sex...

1- How old were you when you lost your virginity? Who was it to? Describe the event.
Believe it or not, I was 18 and it happened in a hotel in Gothenburg. I would say it wasn't a very memorable event at all. Fortuneately sex has improved since...

2- What is the strangest place you've had sex?
A movietheater. Have had that fantasy for ages and met a guy who wanted to make it happen for me. What a gentleman ;)

3- Who would you consider "switching teams" for?
Halle Berry

4-Do you prefer to give or receive?
Give. Have been told I'm good at it.

5- One night stands- What's the protocol? Stay the night or get the hell outta there?
If it's at my place it's ok to stay the night. Since my mama raised me right I always offer breakfast in the morning. Leaving in the middle of the night without saying goodbye is a big no-no...

6-Favourite body part/parts of the opposite sex?
Hands, arms, legs and eyes

7-quickie or long and slow?
Depends on my mood...

8-Noisy or quiet?
A bit noisy, at least enough to know that I'm doing it right

9- Ideal amount of sex per week?
Twice a day

10-What's your number one sexual turn off?
Body odor and just no sex appeal

11-Number one arousal trigger?
A slow dance with a guy who can move

12-What constitutes bad sex?
No foreplay and a guy who moves too fast

13- Celebrity you would love to shag right now?
David Gahan and/or Lenny Kravitz

14- Define sexy?
Self confidence, brains and charisma. And the body awareness dancing gives.

15- Remember the best sex you ever had. What made it special?
The first time with my longlasting love Sebastian or the second time with Dr C. Can't really decide..
With Sebastian it was special because he did everything right and he was, at least lookwise, very much my type, and with Dr C because I was falling for him...

And now...IT'S ON!!

DAVID!!!

I want David Gahan, seriously. He is incredibly sexy and gorgeous and great. I could just keep him in my house and listen to him sing :)

More than anything am I bored now... Today I cleaned my apartment... again.
Yesterday I went training since I missed Mondays training due to a quick dinner with Dr C. Monday I was at a seminar about how to handle your finances when you start your own company. They talked about taxes and accounting. God, it is really complicated! I hope I can manage it. Got quite upset about it all actually, felt like an total idiot since I suck at math...
And then Dr C cracks this incredibly stupid comment about my hair.

Tomorrow it's sis birthday. She'll be 33! And we are all going out for Italian and we are meeting her new boyfriend. He actually called me yesterday and asked what he should get for her. That's sweet I think :) I'm getting her some bling-bling, am going into town tomorrow to get it.
Dr C was invited too so I think he is going to come. When I asked him he answered: that could be nice... A little enthusiasm would hurt!!!
I think we are getting to the point when we have to decide if we are going to keep dating or not. At least I am getting to that point.
He is incredibly sweet and fun but maybe we don't have that much incommon. The weird thing is that we have been seeing eachother for some 6 months but I can't say that I know him... Maybe we should talk more about ourselves. If he comes to the dinner thing tomorrow and we spend the night together I'll try to ask him more about himself. The problem is that if I ask him about personal stuff he will probably start asking me and I truly hate talking abut myself...

Did one very productive thing today: I sent my cv to some places where I'd like to work. Not that they are looking to employ but I could get lucky.

Am so hungry now..

Take care!

Song of the day: Strangelove - Depeche Mode

A better place

Have had quite a busy week actually.
Spent most of Monday and Tuesday looking for jobs. Wrote a really good letter that I'm going to send to some places where I'd like to work. Not that they are really looking but I might find some openings anyway.
Have trained at all last week due to my eye. It's better today so I will probably go training tomorrow again.

Thursday I went with sis and Tanja to the spring fashion event at NK. It was ok, not really all that great. One good thing is their new shoe and bag department. It really really nice. Checked out a Furla bag that I'd love to buy.
It costs about 300 euros but once I get a new job and a paycheck I will indulge myself. Because I'm worth it.

Friday I was home watching "Batman Begins" 3,5/5. It was pretty good since fab Christian Bale is starring in it. Talked to buddy Joachim for a while too. He was home cramming for his big Dive Master degree that he is doing in Egypt in a couple of weeks. He is nice, always manages to cheer me up when I'm not feeling all that happy. It does however feel a bit weird to talk to him about my relationship issues...

Saturday Hannah and myself went to the Winebar to celebrate Ingrid's birthday. We had a very nice time and once they closed we stopped by 7-11 to pick up some candy and drinks mixers and went back to Hannah's place for some more drinks. Dr C called and he was at a friends place having dinner.

Today Hannah and me (The Dreamteam ;)) went to a museum to see an exhibition about fashion and shoes. Two truly essential things in my life. It was interesting but I had hoped that it would have been bigger. Tried to get Dr C to come with us but he was at home sleeping and then he was off playing bandy with some friends.

Saturday night, on our way home, Per and I shared a cab. He is truly intelligent and fun. We got to talking a bit about relationships. He told me some very good thing about men and their views about relationships. As I think about what he said I do believe that he is right so I'll try to put my new found knowledge into practice :)

Right now I'm waiting by the phone... pathetic but true.

Friday sis is turning 33 and we are all going out for dinner at an Italian place. I need to get her a cool present but I have no idea what to get her. She asked me to ask Dr C to join us so next time he calls me I'll ask him.

Am looking at quite a busy week which is good :)

Take care

Song of the day: John the Revelator - Depeche Mode

Feeling better...

today actually. Haven't really done much this weekend, just moved my sad booty from the bed to the couch and back to the bed.

Two couples I know are getting married this fall. First out are the Brussels-couple G+V. They are getting married in Vilnius in August. Could be fun. They have been seeing eachother for 2,5 years and have been living together in Bruxelles for 1 year. G comes from a very big and very traditional family so I think the wedding will be very traditional. They met and he proposed to her one year later.

Second are D+C. They are exchanging their vows in Paris in September - very romantic... It's just that they have been dating for 3 months. I still considering it dating when it's only been 3 months...
Why do people do this?!?! Seriously, they way they are going off at eachother I doubt that they will last until September (suppose the romantic in me is dead and gone ;)).
Regardless it's a good reason for me to go to Paris...

Am considering taking a long weekend with sis and Henrik in Rome in April. Just hanging out, eating great food drinking wine and doing some serious shopping. Italy is always nice!

It seems like I'll be getting my way with the summer holidays. We will be renting a riverboat in France :) I'd love to go to the Loire-area and see all the chateaux. Most of them are open to the public and some are hotels so we could spend one night.

Watched the Eurovision Song Contest yesterday. I suppose it was ok. It's more fun to watch it with the rest of the gang. Last year we watched the finals at Anna-Carin's place and had a bet going on. We also gave our own points for stuff like best/worst clothes, best/worst choreography etc.

Now I'm dragging my sorry self in the shower and then out for a walk in the snow.

Have a great Sunday!

Take care,
Song of the Day: What a Diff'rence A day Makes - Dinah Washington

Note ot self: don't miss very fine Hugh Jackman as Wolverine tonight on TV

Not all that...

today. Well, apart from my hair that turned out really great. Now, when Roseline does my hair it takes basically 12 hrs, when Elizabeth does it, it takes 4,5 hrs.... Guess where I'll be going next time??!?!
Haven't been feeling very well this week and today I'm really really ill! I think I have an eye infection - my left eye is all swollen and I can't see clearly...Suppose I should go to the doctor.

Spent the day at Elizabeth's salon. Me, being the very time focused European I am, was totally stressed out by the fact that every one who works there moves oh so slow! Elizabeth, from Kenya, laughed at me and said that I was "very Swedish"... I guess so but how can I not be since I've lived in Sweden almost all of my life?!?! She asked me if I spoke Swahili, which I don't. It sounds like a very cool language though so maybe I'll learn it. In Liberia, my country of birth, they speak English I believe.

Tomorrow Hannah is having her "glamorous Dinner" but I think I have to miss it. Am not feeling very glamorous and with my weird eye I can't wear any make up. I'll see how I'll feel tomorrow but I think I'll be staying in this week end.

Saturday night is also the Eurovision Song Contest, which is a huge deal here. One of the contestant, Bodies Without Organs (that I like btw) have a gay front man. Because of that there has been a huge protest organized by the Neo-Nazis and such crap... God, what is wrong with the world we live in today?!?! I mean people still starve to death and all some can think about is who the next guy is sleeping with...

I'm spending my Friday night in front of the TV, drinking an herbal potion I bought that supposedly helps against a cold :)

Take care

Song of the Day: To Have And To Hold - Depeche Mode

Champagne, champagne pt III

Had a lovely time last night with Torbjorn and Anna. We spent the last money from last years champagnetasting on a bottle of Bollinger RD 95. We also had a Palmer 98 and a lovely Verdicchio that Torbjorn brought.
Anna brought duck's liver (foie gras). I know it is immoral to eat it due to how it is produced but I really really like it.
There where some demonstrations against restaurants serving it last week.

Had a good week. Was supposed to have my hair done on Monday. Talked to Roseline last week and we decided that she was coming over on Monday morning. When I hadn't heard from her late Sunday night (had already taken my old braids out...) I got quite worried.
She didn't call nor answered the phone. I left a few messages and then I started looking for another place. Was lucky enough to get an appointment the same day. So for now I have my own hair for a while. I'm going back to have it rebraided tomorrow.

Went into town to check out the annual booksale. Picked up a few crime stories and a Lonely Planet guide to Loire, since it seems like that's where we'll spend out summer holiday.

Now the "Bird flu" has officially reached Sweden. I'm not really that worried yet since I don't hang around birds that much.

Today I think I'm about to catch a cold... Dr C was here last weekend and sneezed so I guess I got it from him....
He gave me a cool t-shirt that he bought in New York. That was nice of him I think.

Today I'm staying in I think :)

Take care

Song of the day: The Bottom Line - Depeche Mode

GOLD!!!

Yesss, Sweden beat Finland in the men's hockeygame 3 - 2!!!
Great and exciting game.
Have had a quiet week. Spent most of it at home fixing stuff in my apartment. I'm actually thinking about selling it. I have found a new area that is being built close to where I live today. But the apartments won't be ready until the end of 2007. I can't really plan that far ahead... I mean I don't even know what I shall wear tomorrow...
Had a massage session on Friday morning and d*mn it was painful but painful in a good way. My back is so much better know. So I can actually sit now :)

On Wednesday I'm having some friends over for a champagne tasting/dinner. Will be nice, even if I sometimes get very annoyed about certain things about one of them.
When I drink champagne I love to try new kinds. And it doesn't always have to be one f the "major" brands. And everything doesn't have to be by the book. I'd rather drink cheap champagne in a plastic cup with the right company then an expensive one with people I don't like... Well that's just me...

Had a nice week end. Friday Dr C came over for dinner. We had a nice time. We actually got to talking about us, not really The Talk but now I feel like we are getting a bit closer each time we met.
Saturday I met my family for dinner and Cabaret, the musical. It was so great!! It was set in a restaurant so at first we had dinner and then the actual show started.
afterwards I met with Hannah and some of her friends. One of the guys was that typical type of guy that I really hate. He was very "Mr Know-It-All" and apparently loved the sound of his own voice... And the worst was when he went of and bought a cocktail and came back and said "Isn't that the most gay drink you've ever seen?" I really hate that, it is so not funny! And he obviously laughed at his own jokes, most of the time he was the only one who laughed.

Last week I ordered new glasses, really cool ones. They should be done in about 2 weeks.
This week I'm also having my hair done. I made an estimate on how much money I've spent on my hair the last 10 years and I stopped when I got to 5000 euros. Well what can I say?!?! I might go into bankruptcy but I'll look great doing it ;)

Next week end sis, Hannah and me are having a Glamour dinner at her place. I have to find some recepies for the dinner. That'll be fun :)

Now I'll better get started one something....I just don't know what :) I'll watch Qeer Eye for the Straight Guy while I figure it out :)

Take care and a big shout out to sweetheart Mats who is turning 36 today.

Song of the day: Stupid Girls - Pink

A nice week

Had a blast at Maria's party! Got to catch up with old friends and made some new ones.

What's funny about the people I met is that some of them are part of the same internet network that I am. (No it's not about dating ;)) Shortcut. So I have "spoken" to them and known them for quite sometime but never met them face to face. Got to met some of them at the party and it was really great. They are even better in real life!
Ran into my ex and his new girlfriend and they are thinking about moving to Australia. They spent Christmas there and apparently fell totally in love with the country.

Was feeling quite low on Friday night so to cheer my self up I picked up a new jacket (retail therapy) and wore it to the party. Good friend Joachim called late Friday night and cheered me up.
Got home at around 4.30 in the morning...

Sunday, Hannah and myself went to a jewelry exhibition and had a late lunch.
Mondaynight at around 11 pm I felt like it was a good idea to start fixing my bathroom. I needed to put up my mirror again. Obviously I dropped it into the sink. I managed to save the mirror from breaking but not the shelf... so I had make up stuff all over the bathroom and I of course, hadn't closed my face powder box so I had face powder all over the bathroom too. My neighbors probably think I'm nuts :)

A huge shoutout to the Swedish hockey-girls. They did beat the US and gave Canada a good fight. Go girls! Sweden is actually doing quite well in the winter Olympics this year :)

Dr C is back from New York. He called yesterday and emailed me a link to an online photoalbum. Had some really nice pics! I am dying to go to New York, maybe I'll try to get there sometime in August or September. Suppose I should try to get a job first...

Seems like the Swedish hockey-men are going to beat Switzerland (5-1) he he he :)

Take care

Song of the day: Suffer Well - Depeche Mode

Valentines Day sadness

One of my favorite artists and most talented young R'n'B stars is gone:
Lynden David Hall
He died from cancer on Valentine's Day.
He made some amazing songs and in his memory I'll listen to them tonight and light a candle for him. Rest In Peace

On a more selfish note:
Had lunch with Dr C today since he is going to New York tomorrow and won't be back until Tuesday. We talked on the phone 3 times yesterday :) He was very happy about the CD actually.
Lunch was very nice and relaxed and I'm suddenly not so worried about what s going on with us. It feels very nice, cozy and relaxed. We have fun together and he likes me ... a lot - that I can tell. When he comes back from NY I'm going to bring up the dating site issue once and for all. I have the weekend to work up my nerve.

On Saturday Maria is having her birthdayparty and I got her some very nice flavored chocolates. Hm, I wonder what I shall wear to that party. Last years party was great. Back then I had a huge crush on Mats, wonder if he will be there this year.

And I have got some amazing comments and thought from my internetbuddies. Am so grateful for that :)

Take care of yourselves and the ones close to you

Song of the day: The Other Side - Lynden David Hall

On mute

He did call. Twice. My cellphone was in my bag. On mute. With low battery....
And left a message: "Happy Valentines Day, thanks for the CD. I'm home"

When I saw that he called it was so late so I sent him a textmessage.
So my misery yesterday was just temporary it seems. I'll call him later today and check if we can met tonight or tomorrow night :)

Today I'm going to call Roseline to have my hair done, the bank to start a new account and the job I applied for to see what up.

Take care

Song of the day: Step By Step - Whitney Houston

Misery loves company

or maybe not...

The week end was very nice. Friday drinks with Hannah and some friends at Marie Laveau and Saturday first concert with sis' choir then dinner at Hannah's and then Chris' birthdayparty. Met some people I haven't seen in a while, which was fun. Tried to get Dr C and his brother to join us but he was to tired.

On Thursday night Dr C and I spoke on the phone - nice as usual. Afterwards I worked up the nerve to tell him my thought on the dating site etc so I called him back and to my surprise there was no answer. I got a textmessage at about 1.30 pm saying that he had fallen asleep and he wanted me to call if I was awake. By then I had lost my nerve so I never called him back. All day Friday I was terrified - if I would talk to him I would obviously have to explain why I called back so shortly after we hung up the phone so I did the mature thing: total denial and call screening... He called twice on Friday but I didn't answer.
On Saturday we spoke on the phone and decided to meet up later.

After Chris' party on Saturday I went over to Dr C's place and spent 2 nights. Went home on Monday morning after breakfast. We had some very nice talks about a lot of stuff. He has a way of saying "we..." like "we didn't get the paper this morning" or "I want to be an at-home man but we have to have kids first"
(I suppose I should tell him that kids are not part of my future plans)

Monday was spent in Valentines Day contemplations: what should I do for Dr C. Eventually I decided to make him a CD with some of my favorite songs which I think was kind of nice. I mailed it to him so he should have gotten it today... And that's it! No calls, no messages no nothing! For once I have actually met someone I would like to spent a special Valentines day with - then there is not a d*mn thing!
And on Friday he is going to New York for the week end.

I so wonder what went wrong....

Today I went to a fashion show. The husband of a friend of mine was showing his work. It was very very nice and I am definetly going to buy some stuff of his.

Take care

Song of the day: So High - Toni Braxton

A new point of view

Went to check out new glasses today. Found an amazing pair from Miu Miu that I think I'm going to buy. I borrowed 3 pairs of glasses to try on at home so by Saturday I must decide.

Glasses are really expensive stuff so the pair I choose must be the perfect pairs. Had some trouble with my eye today but the medicine I got is helping - good thing.

Started planning another champagnedinner with AnnaT today. I would love to try the Louise (Pommery) but she wanted to go for Bollinger instead. We'll see what we end up drinking. Sometimes I think she is a bit to much into brands and not so willing to try new stuff. Just because it's expensive doesn't mean it has to be great... There is this wine I really really like: it's Portuguese and only costs about 5 euros...but it's great!

Am back to my more skeptical and not so romantic self today. Checked the dating site yesterday and oh yes just like I thought Dr C is still logging on there. Actually he was online when I checked. So I suppose he is looking for someone else then. Too bad!
I have decided that a mixed CD is to personal, so I'll try to come up with some other idea. I mean seriously, why should I commit to him when he is still on the look out for some girlfriend material!?!
Well, like my friend Per always says: "Judge a person by their actions not by their words"
I guess it's time for The List again. Every time I have to make a difficult decision I write a list of pro's and con's. At the moment the positive things about Dr C are predominant but there is the Dating site issue which grows into a bigger problem the more I think about it. I wonder how he would react if I just ask him straight out. I should do that since communication is the key but I'm not sure I am ready for the answer yet....

Well, we'll see what happens :)

Take care!

Song of the day: Refuge (When it's cold outside) - John Legend

An eye for an eye...

Went to the eyedoctor today to have my weird eye checked out. He looked for ages and then he grunted, walked ut of the room and stayed out for about 5 mins... I got quite worried actually. He came back and told me that he does not know what is wrong! He gave me eyedrops that I'm supposed to take at night. That's it! I mean this man has spent at least 5 years in med school and all he can say is "I don't know"...and I had to pay for it.

But on the good side: before the eyedoctor appointment I had lunch with Dr C :) I called him early, well what is early for me 9 o'clock, and asked him if he was available for lunch. He actually sounded happy that I called... I like that!

I have made up my mind about Valentines Day. I'm going to make him a cd with some of my favorite songs. I think that is pretty neat! I hope he will enjoy it. Now, the question is should I ask him out on Valentines Day or should I wait for him to ask me??? I'd rather have dinner at home then go out I think. But I'll wait until Sunday. If he hasn't said anything by then I'll bring it up.

Right now there is a show called "Sex Inspectors" on TV were they help couples whose sexlife is practically gone. Interesting and quite funny actually. They are giving tips on how to seduce your partner and spice up your sexlife. Some tips are really good... ;)

Did you know that the average person spends 336 hours kissing in a lifetime...Sounds great :)

Sweet dreams!

Song of the Day: Don't let go (Love) - En Vogue

PS I gave up the crossword and started another one, that isn't going so well either!

A Romantic in denial

Ok, I admit: I'm a romantic in denial :)
I think I have decided what to for Valentines day: I'm going to send a bunch of tulips to his job... I think or maybe to his house, haven't really decided yet :)
No, I think to his house is better....

I am beginning to realize that I am quite the romantic. When we had dinner on Saturday (candles and wines...) I didn't feel as uncomfortable as I usually do in that situation.

Went to Franska Matsalen with Dr C on Friday. It wasn't really all that great. The food was ok and the service was actually really bad from time to time. We started with a glass of champagne and the it took such a long time before we could even order. When I pay 100 euros for a dinner I do expect quite good service. For example I don't think I saw "our" waitress smile even once... instead she started yelling at another waitress in front of the entire restaurant... so not ok!

But we had a nice time. He has a way of looking at me and smiling that makes me go weak to my knees - good thing I was sitting down during dinner ;)
Afterwards we went back to my place and had a drink and then off to bed. He was supposed to play squash the next day. He left and I stayed in bed for a while longer.
Saturday afternoon I went over to his place and we (well I) made dinner. He was invited to a party arranged by his volleyball club. We met up with two of his friends, both of them really nice, and went to the party. There were mostly guys there so the two others were quite disappointed so we left early. Went onto Marie Laveau, quite nice bar actually, for some drinks.

Today I've spent most of the day in bed, his bed, working on the Sundaypapers crossword.
Now I'm matching Charlie's Angels II - enough entertainment for a Sunday night I think.

And I've also closed my account on the internet dating site. So we'll see what happens...

Take care

Song of the day: Ordinary People - John Legend

A table for two

Seems like the dinner at Franska Matsalen will be just me and Dr C. Asked him about it yesterday and he didn't seem to be all against the idea.
As I came home from the gym yesterday I saw that he had called. Was happy and called him back. Him and his brother had had dinner and he wanted me to join them. That was sweet I think. I asked him to give me a raincheck and he agreed.
I hope he is still on for the dinner on Friday. Maybe then I'll have the opportunity to start "The Talk".
Applied for a really cool job today. I so hope I get it because I'm so sick of being at home all the time. I've been unemploied for 1 month now - I can't belive people who do this for years. I would go crazy!!!

Well, I'll better start focusing on something other that Dr C for the rest of the night :)

Take care
Song of the day: A Bad Bad thing - Chris Isaak